euphoria

i am in a state of absolute euphoria. i cannot believe it. right now, i just want to scream, dance, jump, go crazy, ANYTHING!!!!

i don't want to be the one the battles always choose
cause inside i realize i'm the one confused
can't you see that you're smothering me,
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
it's like i'm paranoid looking over my back
it's like a whirlwind inside of my head
every step that I take is another mistake to you
this lack of self control I feel is never-ending
it’s haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again, my walls are closing in
shut up, shut up when I’m talking to you, shut up
I put my trust in you
pushed as far as I can go
I wanna know the answers, no more lies
you like to think you’re never wrong,
you live what you learned
for all this, there’s only one thing you should know
put it out for the world to see, LP and xmen to the tenth degree
don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored

I haven’t taken a bath yet. my shirt is soaking wet, I smell like sweat, I haven’t eaten (just 2 glasses of sunkist orange in ccp) I don’t care. I have the world’s biggest smile on my face. there are so much things I’m so thankful for:

…ate providing me with 2 gold front tickets (DEFINITELY!!!)
…being roughly ten feet away from linkin park
…the taxi driver who thought of all possible shortcuts to get jim and I to ccp
…the line to the portalet being wonderfully short
…linkin park starting on time
…them playing my fave songs (crawling, papercut, breaking the habit, numb)
…the manong who was kind enough to give jim and I a souvenir (he introduced himself as jerry yan and I’m called “anna” --don’t ask why) WITHOUT HAVING TO PAY!!! unlike those poor souls who shelled out P500 for a guitar pick
…meeting up with liro there
…having a screamfest with liro there
…touching the water bottle that rob threw (*sigh*) and nearly getting it!!
…the taxi driver (on the way to mega) who talked about led zeppelin, metallica, black-eyed peas, catholicism, aerosmith, michael buble, evanescence, axl rose, the beatles
…jimi, being such a wonderful companion
…being able to find liro and jim after buying two sunkists orange (after much staring from the sunkist lady cause she saw me finish one cup in five seconds)
…lala’s payong which made me stand out in the crowd… hehe
…the crowd not being total war freaks (actually the front people were like, the like you know coño crowd… woohoo!! conyos rule!!! hehe)

there are so much to be thankful for!!! if only I had five extra hands to write down everything I’m feeling!!! the only thing I want to do right now is SCREAM. like anything. when we got off the taxi in ccp, I started screaming from the euphoria of being there, even more so when we realized that our tickets were front seats, even more so when they suddenly appeared, even more when we were able to get free souvenirs(!!! beach academy training yan… and a helluva lotta charm!!!). in the taxi, in the jeep, walking home, now--- all I want to do is scream!!

I wonder if mishi watched. I mentioned earlier, mishi and I were the linkin park pioneers.

mike: “I say it’s goin’, you say, down!!… it’s goin’”
audience: “down!!!”
mike: “it’s goin…”
audience: “down!!!!”

mike: “itaas… how does that go?… itaas nyo ang mga kamay!!!”

mike: “mabuhay kayong lahat!!!

mike: “you guys are one of the best crowds we’ve ever played to!!!”

bola. I don’t care. jologs sila. as of right now, I don’t care.

whhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee………