this is killing me.

bakit ganito?

i just spent the whole day with my favoritest people in the world--
pugad,
tong,
ally,
jenks.

ongapala, salamat friends. :D

pero pag-uwi ko, parang walang nangyari.


:(

urban dub

Well tonight I’m feeling emotional
Lonely here tonight
It’s not helping me at all.

It doesn’t make it better that you’re gone
It doesn’t ease the pain at all
That you’re gone.

defense mechanism

i have this tendency to be extremely vague in my blogs/online journals (yep, both of them). i rarely include details, everything is mostly feelings or emotions or immediate reactions.

why is that?

i thought about it. maybe it's some sort of defense mechanism.

But the thing is, defending myself from what?

one of those days

it's one of those days...

...that you just feel confused
...that you don't know what to do
...that nothing makes sense anymore
...that you wonder, "What am i getting myself into?"
...that you start to feel all the consequences of your actions
...that you feel like shit, but don't know why
...that you feel helpless because you can't do anything about it
...that you wish THAT day would never come
...that you feel useless
...that you're not quite sure what's real anymore
...that not even music can make you feel good anymore
...that
...that i'm writing nonsense here.

early tuesday morning

i opened you because i thought i had something meaningful to say. Something worth writing, something worth sharing.


Oh well, apparently not.

I was thinking, don't we waste other people's time when we call them up or talk to them basically just to say "hi." Or if they ask why you called, you say "wala lang." Doesn't that waste a few seconds of their day? And isn't life too short to be wasted on a few precious seconds?

panic room on cinemax

" it's disgusting how much i love you... "

"tell me about it."

coffee

I just realized something... After all these years of pulling all-nighters cramming for exams or projects or whatever, I have yet to make a really good cup of coffee. Or even a decent one for that matter.

Tonight, my concoction tastes like sugar with added brown stuff for (slightly) more flavor.

What does yours taste like?