oh drama

Gone are the days of screaming and shouting and crying in the org. I'm not so sure if that's a good thing or not. Maybe the members or apps this year are better or maybe we're just more forgiving. Haha I don't know. I try to be the bad guy but all I could see is goodness and hope. Cheesy as it is but I guess I've been looking at it the wrong way for the longest time. Always looking at the future and its goals and all its promise. But then I don't know what I'm saying.

Oh what is this.

I'm frustrated at how time moves way too fast and way too slow sometimes. How I feel that every moment is not enough and even with those moments, I feel like I'm still running out of time. And this is what I've been missing all those years. They don't need me but I need them. To love and be loved like that. Like what Rita said, everything is a race against time. And I feel like I'll never have enough words or enough time to say what I feel.

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additional: I guess i think it's funny how I never expected this would be happening to me. It always was how other people would say goodbye. I never thought the time would come that I'd be the one saying it.

not so nice turned nice

It's nice to think when you don't have alcohol in you.

1. I'm so glad you'll be staying for good. :)
2. I overthought something and now I'm second guessing myself wondering if it's worth it.
3. Thesis shmesis scares me. I realized I shouldn't be thinking about after graduation cause graduation ain't over yet. Haha! Too forward thinking of me.
4. It's amazing how I can't feel what you're going through. Or well I end up feeling the wrong thing. And it gets worse. Agh. This is frustrating.
5. Amazing how things have changed. But how so much more have stayed the same. Or so I think.
6. This is nice. :) Very nice. I could get used to it after months of trying to figure it out. I still am, but like I said, it's nice.

I hate how cryptic I am here.