senseless wednesday

It's been a tiring day today. I got sick again, not enough people showed up for caroling, I didn't get to see the people who I wanted to see, too much food... Basically, everything fell short of my expectations.

Granted there were really good memories, but come on. If 10% of your day is shit, chances are you'll be thinking about that than the 90% good stuff.

Why do we expect so much? From ourselves, from other people? Why can't we just take things as they are? Why are we never content? Or we know we should be, but we aren't?

And then this is not helping. I'm being bratty again, like always (I'm bratty when I blog.. Yep look at me, I'm a brat). It's Christmas and nothing seems to be going right. Somehow all these things just seem to blow up in my face. I'm seriously hoping it's just for today.

I'm tired. I should go to bed.

You're leaving tomorrow. Yup, we'll see each other again, as we always do. Have fun! You're spoiling my family!

trembling blue stars

I"m so far from being over you...

I'm not like them. I'm not like them. How it could be so easy for the two of you to find someone new just like that. And me? Gosh, i've been hung up over the same person for the past year or so. And yes, it's over. And what the hell, could there be anything more? I doubt it. Haven't I accepted that fact already? If I did, why is it so damn hard to move on and find someone new or please, just give it a rest.

For once, can I just be like them? Forget about it all, find someone new, find someone right now, get on with my life and not think of you every freaking minute of my life.

I don't want to be like this.

great

Just great. really.

What was I thinking? What am I thinking? There are marks on my fist to prove my point. And why again?

There it is.

something new

And different for a change.

Not.

Haha! Thanks to Borat for reviving Not jokes. Haha!

"What's the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone?"

Question of the weekend.

Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you, through your weakest moments to leave them behind you.. Returning nightmares only shadows, we'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now