tired

stressed, more like it.

it's 330 am. just finished my [ stupid ] psych paper. i'm not that sleepy. don't really know why. i will regret this later when i fall asleep during my shift in pro-gym.

a while ago, when i was going through my self-pity phase while walking along shaw, i saw something that made me stop thinking about myself for a moment. At the front entrance of shang were 2 little girls (i think between 4-6 years old) cartwheeling. They probably did around 5 or 6 cartwheels before finally crashing to the floor and laughing their heads off. i don't really know why this touched me so much, but it did.

Thank God for these little things that manage to keep us sane.
Thank God for all these constant reminders that you aren't the only person in the world.

Thank God indeed.

about last night...

well not technically about last night, last saturday night.

i was pretty drunk.

sure it started innocently enough. drinking just to make bullshit and 1-2-3 pass more exciting. pretty soon, i was drinking from everyone's glasses.

before i knew it, jemai tripped me while proving to him i could walk in a straight line.

then more tagays from mia, laarni and joc.

and more. and more.

then i was rocking myself back and forth on the chair, laughing my head off for God knows how long. then jemai videos me on his 3650.

i vaguely remember someone bringing me to the living room sofa. the chatz and ken "hotseat" me about all the males in upsca.

they leave.

then i cry. apprently for reasons of "not wanting to be alone" and "not wanting to die alone."

pretty freaky.

blurry faces of aura, jona, jim, mia...hmm. can't remember.

then ken carries me up to the room. i fall asleep with the soft comforters.

that's it.

i wake up sunday morning, feeling extremely embarrassed.

well, now you've seen me drunk. just not wasted.

drunk

i'm drunk

well... not really. just have a really bad hangover. my stomach is doing flips, my head is spinning. the usual.

oof. can i throw up?

more details when i'm sober enough.

queeezzz

this is amazing

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LSS

boldst*r
great pinoy music
 
hey finally blogger supports this sort of text thing. this is amazing. wahoo!!
 
anyway back to boldstar...
 

when anyone else is here, you always disappear
when anyone else is here, you always disappear

starbucks

dio says there are two things that happen to you when you go to starbucks:

1.) your stomach feels incredibly bloated

2.) your pocket/wallet feels considerably lighter

i beg to differ on number two. my pocket felt considerably heavier-- because all that remained were coins.

d'oh!!

i though today was friday so i splurged all my money. it turns out, today's thursday. so i have no more money for tomorrow. and since i just wrote something about giving two entries ago, donations, anyone?

:D

disclaimer

i never intended for my blog to be this personal. i have my own journal for that sort of thing.

never underestimate

one thing that constantly amazes me is this: never underestimate the power of giving. or never underestimate the people's power to give. it goes something like that.

for the past few days, i've been thinking about a lot of things. well not a lot, just this one particular thing, actually.

fot the most part, i've been thinking "what the hell have i done to deserve this?" it's not that i'm not grateful, far from it in fact, but i just think there's too much wrong with me to deserve all this. i think about all my hangups in life, then think about all the goodness people shower me with. and i keep telling myself, wanting to tell them, "ano ba? i'm not worth that. i'm not worth all that trouble."

call this my insecurity day, call it my paawa effect day, call it my fishing day. but come on, i do have a point, right? tell me you've felt this way at one time or another.

aynako, i don't deserve this...

talo na naman

as usual, talo na naman UP kahapon.. against adamson!! against adamson, for crying out loud!!!! with the support of the whole UP!! who took up half of araneta!! this is NOT right!! today's ateneo-lasalle.. kebs ko ba? [haha, i can't believe i just ssaid kebs ko ba...] grrr... i'm so frustrated. isang game lang, please... isang game lang.... hay nako, nakakadepress talaga.

a while ago, during our internship in kids hoopz in metro badminton, jenkins was telling us about all the texts he received from the alumni, UP people, pba people, and how disappointed they all were. "that was the worst game they have ever seen UP play.." stuff like that. it was really depressing.

oh well, my favorite part was definitely cheering. especially when araneta suddenly played "this love" and EVERYONE from up started singing and dancing to it! asteeg talaga. then when we did the wave and ally and i were requesting "unibersidad" chats from the drummers. haha, mahal na nga ako ng pep eh. that's what comes of having a loud voice.

towards the dying seconds of the game, the drummers suddenly played unibersidad. so there we were, the WHOLE UP crowd standing up, chanting unibersidad with all our hearts and exaggerated actions even if the adamson side was going crazy already. it was a sight to see, despite losing by such a huge margin, we were all screaming our heads off. oh well, ganyan kaming mga taga-UP.

[tak-tak-tak-tak-tak-tak-tak] OOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

we learn new songs everyday

wheelbyjohnmayer

People have the right to fly/And when it gets compromised/Their hearts say move along/Their minds say gotcha heart/Let’s move it along/Let’s move it along//And airports, see it all the time/With someone's last goodbye/Blends in with someone’s sigh/Cause someone's coming home/In hand a single rose//And that's the way this wheel keeps working now/That's the way this wheel keeps working now/And I won't be the last/No I won't be the last, to love her//You can't build a house of leaves/And live like it’s an evergreen/It's just a season thing/It's just this thing that seasons do//And that's the way this wheel keeps working now/That's the way this wheel keeps working now/And you won't be the first/No you won't be the first to love me//::guitar solo:://You can't love too much, one part of it (repeat)//You can find me, if you ever want to give/I'll be around the bend,I'll be around the bend/I'll be around, I'll be around/And if you never stop when you wave goodbye/You just might find if you give it time/You will wave hello again/You just might wave hello again//And that's the way this wheel keeps working now/That's the way this wheel keeps working now//I believe that my life's gonna see/The love I give return to me/I said I believe, I believe,/I believe that my life's gonna see yeah/The love I give return to me./I believe that my life's gonna see the love I give/Return to me...

wake

the one good thing about wakes is the countless hours spent bonding/laughing with my brothers and sister while finishing all the wake food.

realizations/what I love about them:

1.) ate is a brilliant ditz

how she can be both at the same time is beyond me. One minute, she’s so clueless, the next, she knows the answers to everything

2.) ate’s wacky sense of humor

ex. don’t the chickens at the bottom row of the trucks get pissed cause all the other chickens poop on them?

ex. angel quiogue is actually a superhero with the moniker “angel of death”. his superpowers include: lulling his villains to sleep by means of all the funeral songs, his car is the “Angel-hearse”, his secret hideout is the zeus-like temple in manila memorial park

3.) It’s with them that I can laugh my loudest and heartiest. I realized I haven’t laughed that hard since God-knows-when.

4.) Lio’s tactless/insensitive sense of humor (ulul mo! gago ka!)

5.) liro’s a chickboy in USTe. (check out his wallet for all the girls)

6.) lafi’s my punching/hitting/slapping/pinching/poking bag

7.) kuya led has never been our driver

8.) kuya lon’s hilarious kwento about tito ben (B-DEO Enterprises in UP Manila)

9.) Our laughs, when combined, drowns out everyone else in the room.

10.) kuya led finishing all my food

11.) kuya lon’s witty remarks

me: “Kuya , are you rich?”

kuya: “yes! very!!! hahahahaha!!!”

or

Kuya: “so lio, how much are you earning?”

lio says an amount

kuya: “oh, a pitiful amount!!! (complete with the british accent)

12.) liro’s free throw dance/echo-is-the-dynamite dance

13.) lio’s remarks about vince’s life

14.) lafi being the star in the family ("oh! this is lafi? he’s so big now!!")

15.) this WHOLE week, I’ve felt the happiest with them

joey has a suggestion: we should just wear placards with our names on it and our position (ex. I’m lei, #6) or ma should just get our bio-data, have them photocopied, then distribute them to the guests so we can all avoid the dreaded roll call.

thanks

for everyone, for everything....

jim, tong, lala, mia, cadz, kat, chot, zak, kuya bas, carlito, angel, lendi

pugad sayk

salamat...