oh drama

Gone are the days of screaming and shouting and crying in the org. I'm not so sure if that's a good thing or not. Maybe the members or apps this year are better or maybe we're just more forgiving. Haha I don't know. I try to be the bad guy but all I could see is goodness and hope. Cheesy as it is but I guess I've been looking at it the wrong way for the longest time. Always looking at the future and its goals and all its promise. But then I don't know what I'm saying.

Oh what is this.

I'm frustrated at how time moves way too fast and way too slow sometimes. How I feel that every moment is not enough and even with those moments, I feel like I'm still running out of time. And this is what I've been missing all those years. They don't need me but I need them. To love and be loved like that. Like what Rita said, everything is a race against time. And I feel like I'll never have enough words or enough time to say what I feel.

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additional: I guess i think it's funny how I never expected this would be happening to me. It always was how other people would say goodbye. I never thought the time would come that I'd be the one saying it.