again??

Dammit. I hate the way you're always right and the way you see right through me every effing time. I wonder how the hell you do it every time. Usually, I'm thankful for it because you give insight to my life that I never would have figure out on my own but on days like these, it hits me how little common sense I have and you, YOU always make me realize that. And it sucks. Cause I feel so stupid around you. And then I wonder if you've hit that conclusion as well. And if/when that happens, I ask myself, "What the hell do you need me for?"

And then I would probably take the question back because I'm suddenly afraid that the answer you might give me might be, "I don't."

Which would definitely suck even more.

So I would probably just suck this up (like I do every time) and go on feeling lousy about myself when I know I shouldn't. And I'd feel bad cause you did nothing wrong. And I'll feel even worse if you found out that this is how I felt.

And then things will get better and I'll forget I've ever felt this way. Then it'll happen again. It's a horrible cycle and it's amazing really how you always manage to keep me on my toes when I'm with you.















edited: and then you go and do something which just makes me smile and forget all my nastiness towards you. And then I go feeling gulity for feeling this way.