bittersweet

How bittersweet. More bitter than sweet. Because I decided to read Dani's Multiply blog so that inspired me to check my grades for the second sem too. So I finally checked my grades online last night and there they were. For some reason, the numbers looked incomprehensible and i couldn't figure out how I was supposed to interpret them. So I computed my GWA and there, the calculator does not lie. Strangely enough, I felt nothing. No whoops of joy, no jumping up and down by my lonesome, no sighs of relief. And here it starts to sink in as I stare at them again. Painful acceptance. Resignation of fate, I guess. i find it strangely ironic how I can muster up the best grades ever, knowing this has been the toughest sem I've ever gone through, yet still know it's not enough.