i'm back :)

I finally get it. I suddenly had this great realization which I hope was not brought upon by too much alcohol. After years of telling people what to do or how to act, I finally am listening to my own advice. It was as if someone turned on a gigantic lightbulb in my head. That something that I was sorely missing this past year (or years?) is back. And I realized I haven't felt this alive in such a LONG time--no, not even with the view from Mt. Tangisan staring at you. So here it is, the great realization: acceptance and moving on for yourself. Ambaduy no? Life's great secret. Haha! It took a while (like years?) for those words to sink in . Yeah, I'm kinda slow on the uptake. At four in the morning (Yey for Gwen Stefani!), I suddenly realized what I had to do and wanted to do or do not. I don't want to settle--for what's there, for mediocrity, for whatever. I want to be a productive member of society and finally do the things I've been putting off for a long time. Little steps formed in my head, sort of showing me the way. This doesn't mean that everything is crystal clear, though. I still have no idea what to do for my thesis or what to do after college, but I'm gonna work like hell with what I've got and make damn sure it's the best thing I do.

My only worry? I hope this is not brought on by an onslaught of endorphins and the remnants of alcohol.