regrets

there's this miss universe-type question that goes like this: Have you ever done something you regret?

And of course, we all know the answer. We would all say "No, i have no regrets in life. Because without which all those things i have done, they never would have made me into the person i am today."

or something like that. we all know how it goes.

But this evening, while riding the bus from Commonwealth, i began to think about my life and the things i've done in the past, my so-called "mistakes."

i asked myself if there is really nothing in my past that i regret doing. i found that i couldn't answer that question. My inner me says

sure, you can say you don't regret anything because they made you who you are today and all that bull, but have you ever realized that with your actions, you affect everyone else? sort of like a ripple effect. You know the saying that everything has a consequence, right? I guess it's the same with the things you do. While you do these things, ultimately, when you come out of it, you will become a better person, but what of the others who get affected by your decision? by your CHOICE. and you have to know that you have to live with the consequences of your actions. that yes, you hurt them. that yes, you have to pay back for what you did. can you live with that? or will you just ignore it and say, "no, i don't regret anything because they made me who i am today"?

i don't know if i'm making any sense.