trying

i'm taking full advantage of this night.. no homework, no exams, no projects. nada. why is it that i can only write about what i truly feel here? haha, no livejournal people to read this.

i really hate this feeling. every time i think i'm ok, it suddenly dawns on me that i'm really not.

random stuff that i really wanna say to.. whoever.

why can't i be happy for you? what do you need me for? why the hell do you stay?

especially for you what did you need me for? why did you have to do that and make me feel that way? did it even mean anything to you? i just want to know that one thing. that's it, then i can go on with my life.

i'm trying to understand why i've been feeling this way for the longest time. i think i'm pretty happy with life and how it's turning out. other than the fact that i think i'm probably failing chem, life is turning out to be pretty ok. so why all this unwanted stress, unnecessary feelings, repeated mood swings?

arrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhh...

bahala na nga.