I have to finish this

I don't want to prolong this anymore than I should. Time to face reality, responsibility, reason, release... everything.

Oh, I'm so good at avoiding things. Hoping things will go away. But the past has a horrible way of cathing up to you and chasing you til you can never truly avoid it.

My whole life has been a lie. For the longest time, I thought I was living my life on the edge but now, I think I've been playing with that line all this time. Moving it and moving it so that the edge goes farther and I only end up stepping on the previous line. I thought took great leaps but all those leaps were in my head. I thought I shared my life and myself with others, until I realized I built wals the size of the Great Wall around me.

But why, why is it that every time I try to be sincere, or every time I actually am, everything has to blow up in my face.

Oh what I've realized these past few days: the world always wins. And here I am fighting a losing battle. A battle I was never meant to fight in the first place. Yet as always, I choose to complicate my life. And the truth? Well people never want to hear about it anyway. And now that I think about it, what truth? My truth changes everyday.

It hurts. But what the heck, at least I still know I'm capable of feeling.