pugad

At the start of the sem, I told the current execom that I would not be able to renew my membership in pugad this year. My commitment to my other org would take too much time, especially in the second sem and I was worried that I wouldn't be able to reach the 60% cut off grade. But here I am. Finding myself in pugad after so long, and realizing this was what I was missing. Now making an effort to drop by the tambayan more often and talk to the people whom I always see but never get a chance to know. And then making an effort to go to the activities, even if I'm late or have to miss a part of the activity, fine. And it's getting harder and harder cause now my life is planned by the minute and by the hour and if I don't follow the schedule, everything goes haywire.

So anyway, its been two weeks since i started this pugad rejuvenation thing and all the more do I feel so grateful for giving it and myself in this org a chance again. A chance to remember pugad and all it means to me, a chance to remember all the relationships and memories formed with all the people there, and now a chance to start anew: A chance to prove myself that I am still worthy to be there, a chance to see pugad for what it really is again, and most importantly, a chance to form new relationships and to truly get to know these new faces.

So to the people who have gone out of their way to accept me and to get to know me and to the people whom I cannot help but feel an instant connection with even if we've only bonded for a short while... to those crazy sophies whom I absolutely love to death-- ivy, jb, julie, jam, dana, meg, kat, miko, shobe, apol. the juniors who continue to make me feel at home --chub, ria, missy, jeejay, josh, inch, carcar. then those seniors whom i just cannot get enough of-- rica, bri, ice.

love. love. love. I find reasons to be there again and I look for it. i really really do want this to end in a different way. Not in the way I always end pugad: disappearing.