bullet points from the previous

I was tempted to write this long, rambling entry on my current crisis of the soul, unfortunately, it got too long that even I can't understand it anymore; nevertheless, I will try to get my points across:

1.Why can't I just be contented? It's been less than a week since my sem and undergraduate life ended and already, I'm bored, restless and frustrated.

2. I have two things right here. One, a part time job that I can full-time my way through. Two, a job offer that's been waiting for me since last semester. And that should be enough right? At least I have something. But see here, I don't want either or anything else for that matter to be an "at least" kind of thing. Maybe that's why I can't seem to say "yes" to either. I know it's idealistic to land a job that I will really love at once, but is it wrong to keep on searching?

3. It's not about the money. Well, it kind of is because I don't want to ask for money from my parents because wasn't that the reason why I took that part time job in the first place? Money is fine, money is lovely, money is love, money is yummy, but but but.. It's not what I want. (Days/weeks/months/years/decades from now, when I am completely broke, I will regret saying that statement. :P)

4. I want to go back to school. Funny, huh? After the hell of the past few weeks and all my desires to get out of school, at the end of it all, it still is what I want to do.

Funny how I've been waiting for this moment for the longest time and now that it's there, it's all so blah. Yey for the real world!